【双语灵修】深切和痛苦的悔悟DEEP AND PAINFUL CONVICTION
诗篇 51:1-12
神啊，求你按你的慈爱怜恤我，按你丰盛的慈悲涂抹我的过犯！ 求你将我的罪孽洗除净尽，并洁除我的罪！ 因为我知道我的过犯，我的罪常在我面前。 我向你犯罪，唯独得罪了你，在你眼前行了这恶，以致你责备我的时候显为公义，判断我的时候显为清正。 我是在罪孽里生的，在我母亲怀胎的时候就有了罪。 你所喜爱的是内里诚实，你在我隐密处必使我得智慧。 求你用牛膝草洁净我，我就干净；求你洗涤我，我就比雪更白。 求你使我得听欢喜快乐的声音，使你所压伤的骨头可以踊跃。 求你掩面不看我的罪，涂抹我一切的罪孽。神啊，求你为我造清洁的心，使我里面重新有正直的灵。不要丢弃我，使我离开你的面，不要从我收回你的圣灵。求你使我仍得救恩之乐，赐我乐意的灵扶持我。
9月24日
深切和痛苦的悔悟
“因为我知道我的过犯，我的罪常在我面前。” - 诗 51:3
这种事情是很容易会发生的。我们一句不经思索和轻率的话伤害了别人，如果我们受到指责，我们本能地会去否认或辩护。当我们尝试自辩时，便会将责任推到别人或环境身上。又或者我们会沉溺在羞愧中，容让那些自我毁灭的想法控制我们。这个循环会摧毁所有牵涉在其中的人。
《诗篇》51篇谈到面对圣灵的责备时的回应。先知拿单责备这篇诗篇的作者大卫王，因他用欺骗手法夺取了拔示巴，又施计令她丈夫丧命（《撒母耳记下》11章）。
在这篇卓越的《诗篇》中，我们可以看见圣灵真确的责备，能够带来生命的改变。大卫没有否认或尝试为自己辩护。他没有把责任推卸给别人，但同时也没有让绝望去淹没自已。反之，他正视自己的罪，向神认罪和求赦免。大卫又祈求一个新的开始：“神阿，求你为我造清洁的心，使我里面重新有正直的灵。”
我们时常都可以透过神美丽的创造和祂话语的真理，得到与神产生共鸣的经历；如果我们诚心认罪，我们也会深深感受到神的同在。愿神引领我们真诚地悔罪，使我们能在耶稣里得着饶恕，祂随时都愿意让我们再次感受到救恩的喜乐。
祷告
耶稣啊，尽管这是不好受的，但我们仍求你帮助我们看见自己生命中需要饶恕和修复的地方。求你洁净我们。阿们。
Psalm 51:1-12
THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 24
DEEP AND PAINFUL CONVICTION
I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. —Psalm 51:3
It can happen so easily. A quick or thoughtless word can hurt someone else. And if we are confronted with our guilt, we instinctively move into denial or defense. We try to shift blame to another person or circumstance as we try to justify ourselves. Or we sink into shame, allowing self-damaging thoughts to take hold. The cycle becomes destructive for everyone involved.
Psalm 51 is a response to the convicting work of the Holy Spirit. King David, who wrote this psalm, had been confronted by the prophet Nathan, who had shown him his guilt and deceit in taking Bathsheba and arranging the death of her husband (2 Samuel 11).
In this remarkable psalm we see what true conviction by the Spirit can bring. David did not deny what he had done or try to justify his actions. He refused to blame others, yet he also did not drown in despair. Instead he recognized his sin, confessed it before God, and asked for mercy. He also asked for a new beginning: “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”
We often experience resonance with God through the beauty of his creation and the truth of his Word. But another powerful meeting place with God is in our honest admission of sin. May God lead us to genuine repentance so that we can be forgiven in Jesus, who is always ready to restore to us the joy of salvation.
Dear Jesus, as hard as it may be, help us to see the places in our lives where we need forgiveness and restoration. Cleanse us and wash us clean, we pray. Amen.